"Daddy I will miss you when you die" is what Lil's told me one day this week.
The inevitable will happen to us all. It took me a week to fully understand my feeling about this. Reason is because I remember asking my Grandma "What do you want me to do when you die". I will never forget her response because I was very young and expected her to say something to the effect of go and beat someone up or break something or just cause harm to everyone and be mad. Well if you know her you know she is nothing like that as a person. What she told me has helped me understand greatly about death.
Ya I said it DEATH don't be scared it will happen to you just keep living. See what she told me is "keep living and keep doing as if I was still here". That has touched me on so many levels because I love my Grandma to death, the only one that is even close at that time of my life is my own mother, this takes nothing from my mom at all she is a very special person to me more to come on that. Now I have my own family so that love is shared with them as well but you get the point.
I am not sure how Lil and I got on this subject but I responded with I will always be here for you, not in the physical but always with you when you need me. This was of great impact to me because we all want someone to love us and miss us after we are gone. It is something we live for, I hope without expectations because most people run from expectations that others put on us. My question is why not love and appreciate them while they are here?
I am not scared of death at all, on some levels I am ready to die. Not suicide ready, but ready in the sense that I can't control it or change it. I am living in the NOW trying to enjoy the beauty in it. Living in the now is to enjoy nature and everything else around you. What I can do is live life because that is what matters most, the "-" (Dash)
I have been robbed at gun point, blood sugars of 970 when I found out I was a diabetic, Typically you are in a coma at 500. I have been in a head on collision that I walked away from and actual ran after the drunk driver that hit me because he was running away. What I learned from that is "Gods Plan Supersedes Mine" Thanks unc for that one. I could have been taken out at any point by any of these. But Gods plan is greater then I can even imagine and that I believe is why I did not die in these examples.
Life is for living, loving and learning but we as a people are to consumed with the light, cable, water or mortgage payment that we spend most of our time away from what we are fighting for (Family). I know this is true for my life and would imagine most are.
I tell you this because sooner or later it will catch you as well, so STOP running. That does not mean go be stupid and do stupid things because you will die! I have found that "What you run from you run into" or "What you resist the most, you need the most".
My family is young and and we have not yet experienced much death at all, but what we have had has been very hard. The first one for me was my Grandpa then my Aunt the oldest child of the family. These have been hard for the whole family and if not they are running. My Grandma is still here fighting to live and still providing learning opportunities for us all, we are just not getting the messages so she will keep teaching I am sure. Thanks unc for everything you do in support for mom!
Thanks Lil's for inspiring this on Fathers Day
OBMO
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Thursday, June 18, 2009
Black and Beautiful in America
I some times answer my phone with "Black and Beautiful" or "Black in America". I do this to remind myself that I Am, Black and Beautiful in America. Usually the person on the other end knows where I am coming from with this statement then laughs in agreement.
I really started this when Obama became the President of America. Notice I did not say President of and for Black people, or for rich people or even poor people. It started then because we as a people seem to feel like we had something to be proud of again. See if you are one of these people that voted for him expecting him to make this change on his own, you are or will soon be fooled. See he is the President of America the land of the free home of the brave.
All he did was show the possibility's of making change people can see. What he understand best to me is the realizes that it only starts with him, but the rest of the work in this case is up to the people. In spite of what your thoughts or beliefs of him, he is NOT the all knowing or the all powerful one who could get himself elected or make the changes we all need. It took a nation of people to put him in office and it will take that same nation to make the changes we all need with his help and support. "It takes a nation of people to hold my people back" search the quote if you don't know.
See for Black folks Obama gives us what I call bragging rights or a even better a target on our backs. See because where whites can get away with doing something a black person is not able to. Why you might ask because them people are watching, most blacks are not the that interested in the crimes whites commit unless it is the mob or the difference of being convicted for powder cocaine (Whites) vs rock cocaine (Blacks) typically. Some black people have taken this time as some kind of power trip for themselves and to take action to the agenda they have. This is the time to exploit the differences in the way Whites are treated vs. Blacks. "It takes a nation of people to hold my people back".
When it comes to Obama they are watching for the jelly on that Brooks Brothers Suit or for him to stumble over his words or just plan show his humanness or in this case his blackness. We as a people need to be even more on point even more aware of what is going on. By checking our intentions because "the man" (White People) are still trying to figure us out. If you thought that all we had to do was put a Black man in office then you have been duped and you will be duped again.
He has only paved the way to more of the same prejudices, now just even more undercover. I say undercover because now they change the way they do things. My example is the new seat belt law in many states. A very good friend of mine was driving from a work site up north back to the cities. This was the first week this new law was put in effect. What happen is the cop sped up to get along side of him while beeping that horn that basically say's look around and move out the way, just to verify he was wearing his seat belt. This is the New Racial Profiling to stop people based on a speculation of how the car or truck looks or the driver. What they did not take into account is who is driving these cars that once looked like a Black persons car not to mention how dangerous it is to be speeding on our highways these day blowing that dam horn. If you don't believe me take a look at what stock cars and truck use to look like 10 years ago and look at them now. Now they come with Dubs or 22's from the factory, and if they don't come from the factory like that they are a factory option.
Why is that? Because Business America has realized the power and influence that Black America has on America. Take the Caddy for example. Only black people and some rare white people usually from Florida or Texas know about Vogue Tires, Mock Tops and Gold Trimming. Blacks have been adding this style as after market parts for years, now they are a factory option and the dealer will install for you and roll the cost into the load. I guess you could always get Vogue's from the dealer but they would be a special order, now most have them in stock for quick sale. As resent as 5 years ago the wheels are even getting bigger from the factory as well as gold package's and wheel and tire types of packages being sold from the factory. If you want some more example to search on or take notice of look at your news casters or reporters more blacks. Look at the beats on video games or major company commercials showing famous blacks or the music they made famous.
The issue with this form a Racial Profiling is that it is one more way for that corrupt cop to gain access to suspected law breakers. My point is now those potential law breakers with the vogue tires are blue collar as well as white collar workers, not just the baller's and shot callers of the pimps and hoes.
My opinion is this the sooner we as a nation realizes that Blacks are not going to keep asking for what they need to be a major part of this America we helped make. After we ask a couple time with now action we are going to start taking.
OBMO
I really started this when Obama became the President of America. Notice I did not say President of and for Black people, or for rich people or even poor people. It started then because we as a people seem to feel like we had something to be proud of again. See if you are one of these people that voted for him expecting him to make this change on his own, you are or will soon be fooled. See he is the President of America the land of the free home of the brave.
All he did was show the possibility's of making change people can see. What he understand best to me is the realizes that it only starts with him, but the rest of the work in this case is up to the people. In spite of what your thoughts or beliefs of him, he is NOT the all knowing or the all powerful one who could get himself elected or make the changes we all need. It took a nation of people to put him in office and it will take that same nation to make the changes we all need with his help and support. "It takes a nation of people to hold my people back" search the quote if you don't know.
See for Black folks Obama gives us what I call bragging rights or a even better a target on our backs. See because where whites can get away with doing something a black person is not able to. Why you might ask because them people are watching, most blacks are not the that interested in the crimes whites commit unless it is the mob or the difference of being convicted for powder cocaine (Whites) vs rock cocaine (Blacks) typically. Some black people have taken this time as some kind of power trip for themselves and to take action to the agenda they have. This is the time to exploit the differences in the way Whites are treated vs. Blacks. "It takes a nation of people to hold my people back".
When it comes to Obama they are watching for the jelly on that Brooks Brothers Suit or for him to stumble over his words or just plan show his humanness or in this case his blackness. We as a people need to be even more on point even more aware of what is going on. By checking our intentions because "the man" (White People) are still trying to figure us out. If you thought that all we had to do was put a Black man in office then you have been duped and you will be duped again.
He has only paved the way to more of the same prejudices, now just even more undercover. I say undercover because now they change the way they do things. My example is the new seat belt law in many states. A very good friend of mine was driving from a work site up north back to the cities. This was the first week this new law was put in effect. What happen is the cop sped up to get along side of him while beeping that horn that basically say's look around and move out the way, just to verify he was wearing his seat belt. This is the New Racial Profiling to stop people based on a speculation of how the car or truck looks or the driver. What they did not take into account is who is driving these cars that once looked like a Black persons car not to mention how dangerous it is to be speeding on our highways these day blowing that dam horn. If you don't believe me take a look at what stock cars and truck use to look like 10 years ago and look at them now. Now they come with Dubs or 22's from the factory, and if they don't come from the factory like that they are a factory option.
Why is that? Because Business America has realized the power and influence that Black America has on America. Take the Caddy for example. Only black people and some rare white people usually from Florida or Texas know about Vogue Tires, Mock Tops and Gold Trimming. Blacks have been adding this style as after market parts for years, now they are a factory option and the dealer will install for you and roll the cost into the load. I guess you could always get Vogue's from the dealer but they would be a special order, now most have them in stock for quick sale. As resent as 5 years ago the wheels are even getting bigger from the factory as well as gold package's and wheel and tire types of packages being sold from the factory. If you want some more example to search on or take notice of look at your news casters or reporters more blacks. Look at the beats on video games or major company commercials showing famous blacks or the music they made famous.
The issue with this form a Racial Profiling is that it is one more way for that corrupt cop to gain access to suspected law breakers. My point is now those potential law breakers with the vogue tires are blue collar as well as white collar workers, not just the baller's and shot callers of the pimps and hoes.
My opinion is this the sooner we as a nation realizes that Blacks are not going to keep asking for what they need to be a major part of this America we helped make. After we ask a couple time with now action we are going to start taking.
OBMO
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Time for check up from the neck up
"I am whatever you say I am, if I wasn't then why would you say I am". If you don't know who said it search it.
The point of this to me is that I choose not to argue to prove or disprove your thoughts because they are whatever you say they are, if they weren't then why would you say they are. Your truths are your truths for you to have all to yourself unless we agree.
Not that a person should not be open to others thoughts but you should not let them lead you unless you agree.
Lets take the first two works "I AM" this statement is a strong one that something to take note of, because we are. The truth needs no explaining or defending, it just is and it is your no matter what it is.
Think of your thoughts as seeds and your words as water, when you speak it you water it with your words. This is important to take the time to understand because the universes answer to everything is YES. Yes to the bad, Yes to the sad and Yes to what you are expecting or wanting.
When you say I am poor the universal response is YES.
When you say I am ugly the universal response is YES.
When you say I am a child of GOD the universal response is YES.
When you say I am Rich the universal is YES
I think you get the point of what I am saying and if you don't read it again.
Look back at your life at all the things you have asked for. All the things from the good to the bad and you will see that you have already received or it is on delay, delay meaning it is on the way.
I have done this and I have found that pretty much everything has happened or it is on delay. so have some faith, it is what we will be judged on. I don't mean faith when everything is going well, I don't mean when you have the 9 suits, 9 cars, 9 houses or the 9 wife's if that is your fancy. But when you have only one of each of them, or only one of them. My question is DO YOU HAVE ANY FAITH? It is easy to have faith when you have everything you ever wanted or when you peers deem you as successful. If you don't think so just keep living and life will happen to you too.
The thing I get most out of the bible is "Faith"! Do you have any? At what point did you loose it, what happened in your life that made you think that FEAR was the better alternative?
Fantasized = To conceive fanciful or extravagant notions, ideas, suppositions, or the like.
Emotions = An affective state of consciousness in which joy, sorrow, fear, hate, or the like, is experienced, as distinguished from cognitive and volitional states of consciousness.
Appearing = To come into sight; become visible
Real = Being an actual thing
I have found very little in my life where FEAR serves me. My example of this fear is my desire to jump out of a plane with a para shoot of course, not having FEAR doesn't give you the right to be stupid. The reason this is a FEAR is because my mind See's no reason to jump out of a perfectly fine plane. I can see jumping out of one that is on fire or going down because of mechanical reasons, but a well working plane.
Not me, but I like to overcome my FEAR because it is an empowering thing to do and achieve. So YES I can jump out of a perfectly fine plane and live to talk about it. We as a people are scared to stand out before our peers. It is one of the reasons we don't do as well as we can in school, because our friends will think we are chumps or nerds or something. We tend to be like sheep playing follow the leader or Shepherd in the sheep case. When the Shepherd is scattered in the mind, the sheep are scattered.
My challenge for us all is that we Do a Check up from the Neck up or in this case train the tongue to speak to what we want, need or desire. In doing this we check our thoughts while checking our minds freeing our body's our souls and our life's. When we free our mind we are free.
Thanks Cuz for the inspiration to write this
OBMO
The point of this to me is that I choose not to argue to prove or disprove your thoughts because they are whatever you say they are, if they weren't then why would you say they are. Your truths are your truths for you to have all to yourself unless we agree.
Not that a person should not be open to others thoughts but you should not let them lead you unless you agree.
Lets take the first two works "I AM" this statement is a strong one that something to take note of, because we are. The truth needs no explaining or defending, it just is and it is your no matter what it is.
Think of your thoughts as seeds and your words as water, when you speak it you water it with your words. This is important to take the time to understand because the universes answer to everything is YES. Yes to the bad, Yes to the sad and Yes to what you are expecting or wanting.
When you say I am poor the universal response is YES.
When you say I am ugly the universal response is YES.
When you say I am a child of GOD the universal response is YES.
When you say I am Rich the universal is YES
I think you get the point of what I am saying and if you don't read it again.
Look back at your life at all the things you have asked for. All the things from the good to the bad and you will see that you have already received or it is on delay, delay meaning it is on the way.
I have done this and I have found that pretty much everything has happened or it is on delay. so have some faith, it is what we will be judged on. I don't mean faith when everything is going well, I don't mean when you have the 9 suits, 9 cars, 9 houses or the 9 wife's if that is your fancy. But when you have only one of each of them, or only one of them. My question is DO YOU HAVE ANY FAITH? It is easy to have faith when you have everything you ever wanted or when you peers deem you as successful. If you don't think so just keep living and life will happen to you too.
The thing I get most out of the bible is "Faith"! Do you have any? At what point did you loose it, what happened in your life that made you think that FEAR was the better alternative?
Fantasized = To conceive fanciful or extravagant notions, ideas, suppositions, or the like.
Emotions = An affective state of consciousness in which joy, sorrow, fear, hate, or the like, is experienced, as distinguished from cognitive and volitional states of consciousness.
Appearing = To come into sight; become visible
Real = Being an actual thing
I have found very little in my life where FEAR serves me. My example of this fear is my desire to jump out of a plane with a para shoot of course, not having FEAR doesn't give you the right to be stupid. The reason this is a FEAR is because my mind See's no reason to jump out of a perfectly fine plane. I can see jumping out of one that is on fire or going down because of mechanical reasons, but a well working plane.
Not me, but I like to overcome my FEAR because it is an empowering thing to do and achieve. So YES I can jump out of a perfectly fine plane and live to talk about it. We as a people are scared to stand out before our peers. It is one of the reasons we don't do as well as we can in school, because our friends will think we are chumps or nerds or something. We tend to be like sheep playing follow the leader or Shepherd in the sheep case. When the Shepherd is scattered in the mind, the sheep are scattered.
My challenge for us all is that we Do a Check up from the Neck up or in this case train the tongue to speak to what we want, need or desire. In doing this we check our thoughts while checking our minds freeing our body's our souls and our life's. When we free our mind we are free.
Thanks Cuz for the inspiration to write this
OBMO
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